I’ve been torturing myself these days about what my job at the moment should be. What am I suppose to do as job? I love writing and sharing here with you what I think and like and what I realize, but there is a big “background” work in order to present all this to you, that I don’t like, part that’s called “web-mastering” or what ever people call it, which takes loads of time and its boring to someone who is yearning to express it’s creativity and not waist time in “submit URL”, “seo for website”, “submit a sitemap”, “share article on social sites”, etc.
Because of all this “background” boring work that I’m definitely not enjoying doing and learning (and trust me it’s a everyday learning and finding out new things that you need to do in order for your website to have traffic), I’ve started questioning, should I drop this whole idea off – I want to learn other things and not this. Day is not that long for all that I have to learn and want to learn. I don’t have time to paint. I don’t have time to exercise. I don’t have time to prepare photos and my art website. I don’t have time to walk dogs. I don’t have time to……. And yet I find myself having great new ideas for my sites!!!! WHAT A HELL?!!!
Should I drop some of my websites or change their niche or do something completely different with them or drop all off.
This may sound to you like, “not a big deal, why is she so concerned about this”, but for me it is a big deal when I “have to” do something I don’t like instead of doing something I DO LIKE. And through all this self-help work, I’ve learned about myself that, I HAVE TO DO WHAT I LIKE, cause if not, I get ill or my mood is down the drain or I get out of energy and then I’m good for nothing but laying in bad (which is not my kind of fun).
And today, again, I’ve open YouTube, hoping to get some clarity, guidance, advice, …, to get something,
anything, that will get me going in direction I’m suppose to go – cause, trust me, I was literally totally lost about this issue, issue of “what am I really suppose to do”, “what my soul wants to do”, “what my occupation should be in this moment”, “am I on a wright track at this point of my life”, etc. I know all of you know what I’m talking about, what issue I’m talking about here – been there, done that.
And then, as God himself was reminding me of what is important (you can call it what ever you want – your soul, higher consciousness or what ever) I saw this video and clicked on it.
I didn’t know who the man is- at least his name was not familiar to me – Neale Donald Walsch. Then I saw that he is the author of “Conversations with God” series of books, books that I’ve already heard off but didn’t read yet – didn’t got to it cause I have “web-mastering” to do – lol.
And clarity happened. And peace happened. And worries vanished. And I’ve got relaxed finally. And I’ve felt free again.
And that “mantra/prayer/affirmations” that I’ve been doing for years and years now, came back to my mind. It felt perfectly suitable and true:
I give myself permission to be whatever I can be
and I deserve the best in life.
I love and appreciate myself and others.
All is well in my world.
See for yourself, I’m not going to tell you anything about it, just hope it will do the same for you.
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